Binary Relationships

Recently I've noticed the amount of decision making that we make on a daily basis, whether we realize it or not. When you boil the whole process down, it really comes down to a "yes" or "no" - Do I do this or not? From there, we narrow down our options to help us make an educated choice. Unfortunately this gets complicated. We as independent thinkers with unique personalities do not play simple good guy/bad guy roles in the lives we lead. We want the best of both worlds; we want it all. Of course what more would be left to capture our desire if we could really simple have it "all". That's beside the point.

I feel like this whole entry is going to be extremely vague because I'm kind of just sitting here ranting off thoughts that are in my brain floating around aimlessly without homes. We all have facades don't we? The role we play at our jobs, in classes, with our friends...hopefully most of those, or at least the latter, is real and genuine. Otherwise, what are you doing? I started off talking about decisions because we make the decisions about what faces we are going to put on for each of the roles we play. It's a mushy-smooshy thing though because what happens when things start to cross over? I don't think that it's always possible to pick one thing or the other, or that it's neccessary all the time. There are certainly thing that one should stick to, this should be obvious, but everyone feels the stress of the collision of one world with another.

This has been brought to my attention most in the past year and a half that I have been a Resident Assistant at my university. I am a leader, an authority figure, an advisor, an optimist, a role model. I am a student, overworked and sleep deprived, fueled by caffeine and in need of a little letting loose and relaxation just like everyone else. BALANCE. That's what everyone says right? It's entirely true, I agree, but no one ever says HOW. I love both realms of my life, the public and the private, and I have learned a lot about myself and how other people operate in the process. As I'm finishing up my last semester of my undergraduate college career, I am really making every attempt (or mostly) to enjoy the moments that remain with the people I care about around me here. With that being said, I have been reminded that I not only live the college student life, but I live the job position I hold as well. I guess the take home lesson for right now is that things will inevitably get complicated when worlds collide, but that doesn't mean you can't smooth out the wrinkles and enjoy the end result.